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Stupid lah! I'm sad. The sec4s are leaving. Today was xieren. The sec4s are leaving, I don't want you guys to leave, I want you to stay I want you to stay WHY you can't you stay I WANT YOU TO STAY I WANT I WANT I WANT!
Today was xieren, it was very, very sad and I didn't know what to say because I'd either start laughing or crying, which means I was being unstable in the head -.-'
So crying wouldn't be very nice so I laughed and smiled. Which wasn't that good an idea because I felt like crying after that.
I really, really felt like crying. I haven't cried for quite a long time, and this was the first time I've come that close to crying for others and not for stress or workload >< I WANTED TO SEE THE SEC4s FOREVER AND EVER.

I'm SAD, I'm sad, I know you guys are really sad too. This is a really emo day.
Ohmygosh, I know you guys will always be there butbutBUTBUTBUT aiyah you know what I mean. And I saw the sec4s doing their performance thing and it was terribly sad and they sang 朋友 and the worst thing is that that song is one of Jubix's blogsongs. ALAMAAAKKK. It's a lovely, sad song but. It reminds me, and the memory hurts because I know you all aren't going to be with us during practices and stuff and I can't imagine a practice without you all.
The song says:

这些年，一个人
风也过，雨也走
有过泪，有过错
还记得坚持什么
真爱过，才会懂
会寂寞，会挥手
总有梦，总有你
在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话，一辈子
一生情，一杯酒

朋友不成孤单过
一生朋友你会懂
还有伤，还有痛
还要走
还有我

"朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有"
DARN IT lah.
I really can't. I can't, I won't and I don't want to. I really love and respect all of you quirky fun guys.
Why why why why why did you all have to leeaaavveee....? ITS DAMN PAINFUL CAN.
Our first meeting was wonderful, sweet and perfect, and now everything is all pain and tears.
Actually I didn't cry but after I saw Dora and hugged her and ShunYing I look and I look and I LOOOK and I felt like crying, really badly, and if I didn't siam soon I was gonna cry for sure.
So I went away, and the tears went away, but I was going away from everyone.
I know I'm so not making sense here but tears do not make sense.
AND I was really touched by all your cards, and the superrly long messages you all had written. I was really touched, I swear I'll frame em up or keep them in some special box or something silly and sentimental like that.

Meixian, I will always call you AhMa, forever and ever.
You'll always be my special AhMa. I promise that, forever and ever.
Meixian don't cry,
I love you.

I've so much more to say, so many tears to shed, so many more hugs to give, but I know if I go on everyone won't be bothered to read on. I wish I made cards for all of you, individually.
Darn it, I really want to let the tears out now. WHAT has gotten into me?
Anyway, I just want to say this now, before I become delirious & pigheaded and forget:

SEC4s, WE LOVE YOU!
RAWK ON DEARS!
you'll always be in our hearts.
dance, and live on (:

DANCE. I love you, Yuntong, Dora, ShunYing, Joanna, Meixian, Lyon, LiuChang, Jocelyn and all the other sec4s.
And when I say iloveyou, I mean it because, there is no point in saying something you don't mean.

I LOVE YOU.

darn i feel like crying again.
still tell dora don't cry. i am a bad example.
gaaahh. this is stupid.

byebye. i can't continue posting if not i really will cry.
sec4s are love, love, love.
我们永远是朋友，我永远记得你们。

学会万岁！