I'm angry.
I'm ANGRY.
I'm angry with the WORLD.
I HATE THE WORLD.
And I don't like myself either.

That's just a step away from saying I hate myself.

Maybe I just don't work well with people. Maybe Yiren's right and I'm anti-social.
Whatever.
I hate you, alot.
(that 'you' doesn't mean Yiren btw)
Don't get me wrong.
I've seldom hated someone this much.
I can't help myself, I try, I really do, I try not to, but I can't.
God says to love your neighbour as you love thyself but I CAN'T DO IT!


And plus I don't like myself.
AT school, oh sure I'm fine, I'm happy, I eat ice-cream with the Clan, I forget.
And then I come back home, and I look at myself in the mirror, stare at my homework and tests and handbook and projects, and I wonder what type of person I am.
Then I start to hate.
I hate you, and sometimes I hate the world, and sometimes, I don't really like myself.

Well of course, I'll always love the Clan, and Limin and Cheng Yee and my nuer and you and all the other nice people out there in the world.
But I can't stop hating some people.
And maybe sometimes myself.
I'm horrible at algebra and maths and science and stem and leaf and I'm suffering from inferiority complex because Mark and Yiren sit behind me and they're good at everything I'm not.
And the only thing I am good at is English and what use is that if my brain can't do algebra and is as good as mush?
It's always been like that, my whole life.
I can't seem to be good at anything. Why?

I miss you, Ella.
Come back. Call me baka again, I don't care. Come back and tell me it's allright.

I'm getting emo. This is not good.
Help me.
How to Save a Life.
Teach me how to save my own first.

Thank you, the Clan, for being there for me. And all the rest of the people who made me happy like Sin Yee =)
I apparently am not good enough to be there for myself.

Oh, save me.
I need to dance.
I need to never see you again.

I'm angry, because the tears are coming, the world is going too fast, and I can't stop time.

and the 'you' in this post is a her btw.